One Month

Dear Kori-

You have reached the ripe old age of one month, and I'm already learning so much about you. It may not come as a surprise to you, but you are very different from your sister in many ways. This is a good thing, that you are both so special and unique. But even though I like to think that I'm pretty smart, it's taking me awhile to learn that we need to parent you differently than we parent your sister. I suspect we'll always be figuring this out - how to do what's best for each of you, especially when that may look very different and may not seem like we're being fair. Please know that we're trying to give you what you need based on you, and not on making things completely even between you & your sister.

You will probably laugh at the things I choose to worry about, but honestly I'm currently convinced that you sleep too much. Really! You are doing so well and sleeping for such long stretches of time (3 hour naps, 5 or 6 hours at night), that I wonder if you're eating enough when you're awake or at times if you're still breathing. I think you get some of this from your Dad. He is an incredibly deep sleeper, and you certainly don't seem to be bothered by any noises when you're out. Anyway, I guess I'll always be looking for things to worry about. I'll do my best to keep it from getting out of control, and I'm working on just enjoying you instead.

And there's a lot to enjoy! I didn't really know what to expect you to be like other than knowing you probably wouldn't be like Jenny. We didn't even know if you were a boy or a girl. So I've really loved getting to know you. I love your eyes, the way you look around as if you're completed surprised by the world and everything you see, the way you sleep on my chest after you eat, and pretty much everything about you. Maybe that's why I worry about your sleeping - I'm anxious to get to know you more and you're rarely awake for us to "talk"!

I'm rambling now. Hopefully in the future I'll have more interesting things to say about what you're doing and what's going through my head. Right now I'm just in awe that you're here with us finally. And I consider myself incredibly blessed to be your mom.

love-

Mama